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Amy Winehouse and BPD

One of my twitter followers posted the original Daily Star article about Amy Winehouse and Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Of course, I’d had Amy on my Celebrities with Possible BPD list for many years. If you want to read all of my articles about Amy Winehouse click here. I have no idea why the title includes ‘Mental Illness’ in quotes. Maybe it was because they were quoting the relative or maybe it brings up the question as to whether BPD is an actual mental illness. Here is the text of the article (and my comments below):

TRAGIC AMY WINEHOUSE HAD ‘MENTAL ILLNESS’

TROUBLED Amy Winehouse suffered from an undiagnosed mental illness, a relative has revealed.

The talented soul singer could have been struck down by the little-known Borderline Personality Disorder.

Sufferers have feelings of anger, emptiness, shame and guilt and become emotionally volatile.

And it can also push them into substance abuse and eating disorders, both of which Amy succumbed to.

Yesterday a member of the Back To Black star’s family said: “It was never diagnosed, because unfortunately she would never agree to a proper diagnosis.

“I’m not an expert, but from what I’ve read on Borderline Personality Disorder it kind of fitted with her.”

Meanwhile Amy’s dad Mitch, 61, said he wished his daughter, who died in July aged 27, had sought counselling.

He said: “She never stopped trying.

“She hated the way she was when she was drunk and when she was ill.

“And you know, the way I look at it, she died trying.

“She didn’t give up. She died trying to make her- self better.”

This article, although short, points out several interesting things about people with BPD. Since there’s no guarantee she had it, I’m going to generalize a bit. First of all, it is tragic that BPD is “little known” because it is much more prevalent than bipolar disorder. The article says: “Sufferers have feelings of anger, emptiness, shame and guilt and become emotionally volatile. And it can also push them into substance abuse and eating disorders, both of which Amy succumbed to.” This is very true. A person in extreme emotional pain will do anything to stop the pain. The article ends with “She died trying to make her- self better.” I’d like to amend that statement to “She died trying to make feel her-self better.” That’s the nature of the disorder and that’s what many non-BPDs do not understand. It’s all about his/her feelings (IAAHF) and not about controlling, manipulating or calling for attention.




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Media Reports the Amy Winehouse may have had Borderline Personality Disorder

Well, duh. I had Amy Winehouse (RIP) at the top of my Celebrities with Possible BPD list for almost 4 years. Now the news media is reporting the possibility.

Amy Winehouse May Have Had a Mental Illness
Posted by Roberta Seldon on December 5, 2011 4:23 AM

Amy Winehouse may have been suffering from an obscure mental illness that ultimately led to her untimely demise, according to a report from the Daily Star.

According to the Star, Winehouse may have been suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder — a condition that leaves the individual emotionally volatile, with feelings of anger, guilt, shame and emptiness, thereby pushing him or her into eating disorders and substance abuse.

According to the Star, a family member said that the Grammy award-winning singer may have suffered from Borderline Personality Disorder. “It was never diagnosed, because unfortunately she would never agree to a proper diagnosis,” the Daily Star quoted a family member as saying. “I’m not an expert, but from what I’ve read on Borderline Personality Disorder it kind of fitted with her.”

Meanwhile, Winehouse’s father, 61-year-old Mitch Winehouse, told the Star he wished Amy would have sought counseling. “She never stopped trying. She hated the way she was when she was drunk and when she was ill,” the Daily Star quoted Mitch as saying.

“And you know, the way I look at it, she died trying.”

“She didn’t give up. She died trying to make herself better,” he added.

 

 

Did Marilyn Monroe have BPD?

In light of the new film about Marilyn Monroe, I found this about her:

In one part of the book “Lost In The Mirror”, Dr. Richard A. Moskovitz, M.D. writes, “Elton John’s characterization of Marilyn Monroe as a candle in the wind captures the essence of the borderline personality. She is an elusive character lacking in identity, overwhelmed by a barrage of painful emotions, consumed by hunger for love and acceptance, and careening from relationship to relationship and impulse to impulse in a desperate attempt to control these feelings.”

 




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Amanda Knox was accused of being Borderline in trial

The first article that I have seen that indicates that Amanda Knox was accused of having BPD.

Tears of freedom, now the bidding war begins

Karen Kissane October 05, 2011

THE family of the murdered girl was bereft; the family of the alleged murderer jubilant.

Amanda Knox

After judges in the Italian hill town of Perugia declared convicted murderer Amanda Knox not guilty on appeal, her sister Deanna said outside court: “We’re thankful that Amanda’s nightmare is over. She has suffered four years for a crime she didn’t commit.”

Ms Knox, 24, was flying home to Seattle last night, where she is expected to receive offers for multimillion-dollar book and movie deals about her ordeal.

TV networks are already bidding for her first interview.

Ms Knox’s mother and other relatives were seen at Rome’s Leonardo da Vinci Airport, where Ms Knox joined them on a flight to London before boarding a connection to the United States.

But for the family of the woman she was accused of murdering, 21-year-old Meredith Kercher, there was no joy in the legal decision that overturned Ms Knox’s conviction and 26-year jail sentence.

They said in a statement: “We respect the decision of the judges but we do not understand how the decision of the first trial could be so radically overturned. We still trust the Italian justice system and hope that the truth will eventually emerge.”
The prosecutor Giuliano Mignini vowed an appeal to Italy’s highest criminal court.

“Let’s wait and we will see who was right. The first court or the appeal court,” Mr Mignini said.

“This trial was done under unacceptable media pressure. The decision was almost already announced; this is not normal.” If the highest court overturns the acquittal, prosecutors could request Ms Knox’s extradition to finish her sentence.

At an earlier media conference Ms Kercher’s sister Stephanie said the “brutal murder” was being overlooked: “Meredith has been hugely forgotten.” Her brother Lyle said: “It is very hard to find forgiveness at this time. Four years is a very long time but on the other hand it is still raw.”

Judges also acquitted Ms Knox’s alleged partner in crime, her Italian former boyfriend, Raffaele Sollecito. The two had been convicted of raping and murdering Ms Kercher, an English exchange student, in the bedroom of a cottage the two women shared in Perugia in 2007.

The case sparked lurid language and an almost lascivious fascination inside and outside Italy’s justice system.

Judges have yet to give their reasoning but it is thought they relied on experts who testified the original investigation had been botched, with more than 50 errors in the handling of DNA evidence. The two judges, sitting with a six-person jury, were not swayed by the venomous language of the lawyer who had painted Ms Knox as a she-devil for initially falsely blaming her employer, bar owner Patrick Lumumba, for killing Ms Kercher. Mr Lumumba was arrested and jailed for two weeks after Ms Knox claimed she had heard him enter Ms Kercher’s room and then clapped her hands over her ears to muffle screams.

Mr Lumumba’s lawyer told the court: “The woman you see before you today is charming [and] angel faced … [but] she was a diabolical, demonic she-devil. She was muddy on the outside and dirty on the inside. She has two souls, the clean one you see before you, and the other.” He also claimed: “She is borderline. She likes alcohol, drugs and she likes wild, hot sex.” Continue reading Amanda Knox was accused of being Borderline in trial

Amy Winehouse, addiction and BPD from the NY Times

Before her death, I’d written about Amy Winehouse and my analysis of why she was very high on the BPD-o-meter. Here is an article from the NY Times about addiction that mentions both Amy Winehouse and Borderline Personality Disorder (but not as her having it). Here are some interesting quotes:

Clinicians have long been aware that patients with certain types of psychiatric illnesses — including mood, anxiety and personality disorders — are more likely to become addicts. According to the National Institute of Mental Health’s Epidemiologic Catchment Area Study, patients with mental health problems are nearly three times as likely to have an addictive disorder as those without.

Conversely, 60 percent of people with a substance abuse disorder also suffer from another form of mental illness. Still, it’s unclear whether addiction predisposes someone to mental illness, or vice versa.

Scientists do know that having a mental illness doesn’t just increase the chance of intermittent drug abuse; it also significantly raises the risk of outright dependence and addiction. The conventional wisdom is the link represents a form of “self-medication” — that is, people are using drugs long-term to medicate their own misery.

And of course, I can’t overlook this one:

Certain personality disorders also raise the odds of drug abuse and alcohol abuse. Narcissistic patients, who constantly battle feelings of inadequacy, are frequently drawn to stimulants, like cocaine, that provide a fleeting sense of power and self-confidence. People with borderline personality disorder, who struggle to control their impulses and anger, often resort to drugs and alcohol to soften their intolerable moods.

Maybe that is an interesting factor for understanding the difference between NPD and BPD. In my experience, those with BPD are usually drawn to benzos, alcohol, and opiates. In my poll about substance abuse over 75% of respondents said they have had problems with substance abuse. Because of the u-opioid study by Stanley and Siever (and others), it seem natural for borderlines to seek pain-squelching medications, illicit or not.

Miami Dolphins Player Brandon Marshall admits to Borderline Personality Disorder

One of the first public personas admits to a BPD diagnosis:

Dolphins’ Marshall believes disorder is the source of problems

Miami Dolphins wide receiver Brandon Marshall, whose alleged stabbing by his wife in an April domestic dispute was the latest of a string of incidents, believes he finally knows the source of his problems.

Marshall told the South Florida Sun Sentinel in Sunday’s editions that he has been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. The 27-year-old said he received the diagnosis after three months of treatment and therapy, psychological and neurological exams at Boston’s McLean Hospital, the training ground for Harvard medical students.

“BPD is a well understood psychological disorder. It’s not a form of misbehavior,” said Mary Zanarini, a professor of psychology at Harvard Medical School, who treated Marshall this summer.

BPD is a mental illness that studies indicate is more common than schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, but is rarely diagnosed because of misperceptions in the mental health field, and the challenges of providing a proper treatment plan, Zanarini said.

She said the disorder is marked by difficulties with relationships and self-image and controlling moods and emotions.

Marshall, who believes his treatment will help him better cope with his moods, has told the Dolphins of his diagnosis and said he is telling his story to create more awareness of BPD and better treatment for the disorder.

“By no means am I all healed or fixed,” Marshall told the newspaper, “but it’s like a light bulb has been turned on in my dark room.”

Marshall said Dolphins teammate Ricky Williams suggested he seek help at McLean after a Marshall outburst during a team meeting. Williams also received treatment at the hospital for his personal struggles.

Marshall said he first held sessions over the phone before visiting Boston every few weeks in January and February to meet with clinicians. Marshall said the April altercation that led to his wife Michi Nogami-Marshall’s arrest only reinforced that he needed more intense treatment.

“It wasn’t till I got here that I understood why I was so unhappy, why I was so miserable,” Marshall told the paper. “But understanding is merely the beginning of the journey.”

Marshall said he met four hours daily this summer with clinicians and fellow BPD patients, learning to cope with his emotions.

“Anytime there’s conflict it’s a challenge,” Marshall said. “What I’m feeling or trying to get across is right, but I’m reacting wrong. My actions or what I’m saying is not effective or productive and it makes the situation worse.”

The charges against his wife have been dropped but Marshall admits his marriage is not repaired. He insisted, however, that he is determined to make improvements in every facet of his life.

“Before this ordeal I kept asking God to show me my purpose. He gave me this,” said Marshall, who caught 86 passes for 1,014 yards and three touchdowns last season. “I’ll be the face of BPD. I’ll make myself vulnerable if it savessomeone’s life because I know what I went through this summer helped save mine.”

 

Amy Winehouse found dead at 27

It appears that Amy Winehouse has joined the “dead at 27″ music crowd (Kurt Cobain, Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin, Jim Morrison, others). It’s sad and unfortunate. She was #1 on my BPD-o-meter because of her erratic behavior.

Singer Amy Winehouse Found Dead

London (CNN) — Singer Amy Winehouse was found dead at her apartment in London Saturday, the UK Press Association reported. She was 27.

London police said they were called to a home, which matches Winehouse’s address, Saturday afternoon in response to “a woman found deceased.”

“On arrival officers found the body of a 27-year-old female who was pronounced dead at the scene,” a police statement said.

“At this early stage it is being treated as unexplained,” police said.

The “Rehab” singer had a history of battling drugs and alcohol and recently left a British rehabilitation program that a representative said was intended to prepare her for scheduled European concerts.

But she cut short the European concert tour in Belgrade, Serbia, last month after she staggered around the stage and stumbled through several songs.

Audience members booed Winehouse off the stage that night just a few songs into the first concert of the tour.

Winehouse rep Tracey Miller told CNN at the time that the singer “agreed with management that she cannot perform to the best of her ability and will return home.”

“Everyone involved wishes to do everything they can to help her return to her best and she will be given as long as it takes for this to happen,” representative Chris Goodman said in a statement in May.

Winehouse’s throaty vocals brought the British musician stardom in 2007, but her off-stage life gained her notoriety. The lyrics of her songs, especially the hit “Rehab,” chronicled her troubled life.

The song, in which she sang “They tried to make me go to rehab, I said no, no, no,” helped form the public’s view of Winehouse.

“I don’t care enough about what people think of me to conform to anything,” she said in a CNN interview.

Winehouse, born in London in 1983, became a picture of a tattooed teenage rebel after she was expelled from a prestigious performing arts school.

Her first album, “Frank,” debuted in 2003, when the singer-songwriter was 19.

International success came with her 2007 album “Back To Black,” which in included the single “Rehab.”

 

Interesting Statement from Judge in Lindsay Lohan Case

Lindsay Lohan’s judge makes a statement about Lilo:

Sautner disagreed with the recommendation Wednesday, saying she didn’t think Lohan had a substance abuse problem.

“She has other problems, which she self-medicates,” the judge said.

I wonder what those “other problems” are? Perhaps you can check here for more information on the behavior of Lindsay Lohan.

Here’s the full text of the article:

Lindsay Lohan says she’s glad theft case resolved

LOS ANGELES – A lawyer entered a no contest plea Wednesday for Lindsay Lohan in the theft of a necklace, setting the stage for a summer of confinement, counseling and community service.

Defense attorney Shawn Holley made the plea for the actress, who did not appear in court in the misdemeanor case involving a $2,500 necklace taken from an upscale shop in the Venice area of Los Angeles.

Lohan, 24, did not acknowledge guilt through the plea, but the court will log the case as a conviction.

She said later in the day in a written statement that she was glad to put the case behind her and has already started her 300 hours of community service at a shelter for women.

“I hope to be able to fulfill my obligation without any press attention,” Lohan said. “I think the media spotlight should be on issues such as homelessness and domestic violence instead of on me.”

Lohan did not have to attend the hearing because she was facing a misdemeanor charge.

Superior Court Judge Stephanie Sautner ordered Lohan to serve a 120-day jail sentence and remain on probation in a 2007 drunken driving case while she completes a total of 480 hours of community service and undergoes psychological counseling.

Along with the women’s shelter, she will do 120 hours of community service at the coroner’s office, with the remainder to be decided.

The judge ordered the additional counseling after reviewing a probation report that showed Lohan tested positive for alcohol in February, a little more than a month after she was released from rehab.

The report also said authorities found evidence the actress had been drinking in December while receiving treatment at the Betty Ford Center.

Lohan had been sent to Betty Ford for three months of treatment last year after failing a drug screen. The report indicated she had tested positive for cocaine and amphetamines during the court-mandated drug test in September. Continue reading Interesting Statement from Judge in Lindsay Lohan Case

First Search on IAAHF

I coined the phrase “It’s All About His/Her Feelings” (IAAHF) as a mentalization tool to understand the MOTIVATION behind much of the confusing behavior of those with BPD. Last week, I got the first search engine search on IAAHF. See below:

IAAHF

As you can see, I also get lots of searches on “famous people” or “celebrities” with BPD. I only post those types of articles to relate to those with BPD and their families that perhaps they are not alone in their struggles – perhaps (again it’s a maybe because the closest celebrity to actually come out and say he/she has BPD is Megan Fox – who speculated about it).

I’ve written a lot about IAAHF here. I also explain the concept and how it relates to validation skills in the I-AM-MAD communication skill. The concept of IAAHF is extremely important to fully understand if a non-BPD is going to understand what is going on in the emotionally dysregulated moments (EDMs). It takes some time to understand and to truly “get” it. For me, it was one to the most valuable perspectives on BPD and emotional dysregulation.

Sometimes, however, nons have a problem with this concept because they misinterpret it. Here is a brief note from “When Hope is Not Enough” (the second edition, on which I am working) about IAAHF:

I found that many people bristle at the idea that it’s “all about” the borderline’s feelings. Sometimes this formulation makes the Non-BPD’s ask: what about my feelings? (which, in a way, is a reformulation of “what about me?”). The intention of this concept is for you to understand the motivation of behavior, not the entire landscape of the relationship. There will be times in which the context of the relationship is about your feelings. Yet, when the “crazy” behavior takes place, it is most often motivated by dysregulated feelings and emotions. The purpose and intent of the behavior is to quell those feelings, even if it seems as if it’s your fault that those feelings exist. To understand and use this attitude properly, you have to remember that it’s (the behavior) is all about (motivated by) his/her feelings (dysregulated emotions that require calming/quelling of pain).

 

Charlie Sheen and Borderline Personality Disorder

Does Charlie Sheen have BPD?

Alright, I have to admit it, I’m fascinated – as I’m sure many of you are - watching Charlie Sheen and his “meltdown”. I’m fascinated, yet sickened because he seems to be having a mental health crisis right before our collective eyes. The question is: what are the mental health issues? Since I am not a doctor, nor have I ever met Charlie Sheen, I’m not qualified to diagnose him with anything. I have meet a lot of people with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and their families and friends. I have watched first-hand what BPD can do to a person and a family.

Yet, I’m not at all convinced that Charlie Sheen has BPD. Some online analyses have pointed to BPD for Charlie, but thus far his behavior doesn’t seem to support that. Sure, he’s impulsive and seemingly either manic or hypo-manic. Hypo-mania can certainly be a feature of BPD. In my experience, this hypo-mania usually comes along with drug abuse (active) when the person with BPD takes medications or drugs that interferes with their impulse control. They think of something and do it without thinking about the consequences. Certainly, Charlie Sheen’s doing that right now. Except with BPD, the “mania” (or hypo-mania) typically only lasts a few hours or (at most) a couple of days. Charlie Sheen seems to be in an extended manic episode and it is not drug-fueled (if we are to believe his drug tests). This type of mania is more common in Biploar Disorder (either bipolar I or II).

He also seems to have lost touch with reality at some level. This disassociating can also be a feature of BPD, as well as other disorders. See his “Charlie’s Korner” episode 4 for that seeming losing touch with reality.

One thing I did notice about Charlie Sheen and his current rantings is that he seems fixated on judgment of him from others. This feature is one that is very common with BPD, although it’s probably common with other disorders as well. He seems to have set up an “us (or me, the warlock) versus them (the trolls)” mentality which is also very common (black and white thinking) in BPD. Yet, the shame and self-image issues seem to not be there (at least as far as we can see at this point).

Anyway, I guess the jury’s still out on Charlie Sheen. I hope that he will goes to get a professional mental health evaluation and take care of whatever mental or behavioral problems he’s experiencing.